I'm going to use this journal entry as my NaPo thread, seeing as the folks at the PFFA have decided to delete my thread due to the fact that I had to take a few days off. They've never done this before, and I don't quite get why they would delete a NaPo thread after only 2-3 days of inactivity. After a week of inactivity, I would understand. Sometimes life gets in the way. I'm kind of pissed off about the whole thing. I don't think I have my first poem, as I didn't save it/had it on my pffa napo thread thinking it was safe. Fuckery.

April 5th: I'm still two days behind. Bear with me. I'm hoping they'll let me make a new NaPo thread on PFFA, because half the reason I keep going during NaPo is the community support. I'm angry.

01 Crossings (missing)
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02 On Water and Silver Nitrate

he says
that sunrise doesn't count
unless we're conscious.

and i fall, through
the spaces between boardwalks and below
his expectations. there is water
in my lungs and i cannot, could not,
breathe it all out.

i am the quiet conscience, waiting
in his head,
the celluloid girl.


03 Saw, Dust

he would put them
everywhere, tea lights
in construction sites like paths
of an axis, vertical
or otherwise. he said
it was for me, we could follow them
if we tried. we moved higher,
sipping skywinds and walking
on the backs of cranes.

in the mornings after we would wake, stretch
on the shoulders of buildings and stand
in tides of birds,
early to rise.